Feeling out the different organizations

I have now been in pretty good communication with three of the organizations. After talking to one of them it seems like the organization is very unclear and has a do what you want type atmosphere and the second organization seems to want to make me a leader and I don’t think I’m ready for that. The third organization seems really organized and it offers a lot of help when it comes to raising support, which is really sweet, because as of right now, that is my main fear. I feel like I’m going to need to trust God more than I ever have had to before.